And so we wait

And we wait. For those of you in 'the know' we feel we have gotten an answer from God through much prayer. We feel that for now.....we must wait. And I am not good at waiting. Patience is not one of my virtues. You'd think after 7 years of teaching 5-6 years olds I would have picked it up along the way somewhere....but I think I must have missed it!

We must wait to start the adoption process. The plan is still to adopt from Ethiopia....just not right now. I am at peace but totally saddened at the same time. Mike and I went out on a 'date' last night and discussed what we had both been feeling about it since it had been a week since our meeting with the agency. We had spent the week praying about it, thinking about it, and generally not discussing it. My prayer had been the whole time that God would lead Michael to complete peace and that Mike would lead the way. Because I tend to just jump on in with things.....that's why Mike is so good for me. :)

Mike did not have peace at this time....and amazingly it wasn't because of the money (which was what I thought would have deterred him in the first place). The rationale for waiting that God lead Mike to was completely true and right. However, my heart hurt because my fear was that if we didn't do it now we wouldn't do it....that we would join our fellow humans in the pattern of not following through on things....but as Mike reminded me.....we do follow through with things....2 marathons & a few trips back to South Africa later. He's right. We will do this. And a couple years down the road God will swing the door WAY open and we will dance through it with joy! And at that time we will be able to do a greater good. But my heart is still sad. For now....we will continue to pray and hope and dream of baby E while doing the good we can here in Bakersfield to those around us (I have some exciting plans in that arena as well!). God is good. Thank you for all your thoughts & prayers & encouragement!